where did it all go? oh, wait.

me and my fiancé's sister at a New Year's Eve party at THE best place to listen to live music and hang out around here! and guess what? it's family-owned and i feel like i'm at home there! i sit at The Girldfriends'/Old Ladies' Table, keep paws off of Andy, and have drinks and dance!

i. am. so. tired. today has been a little rough so far: i snuck in cup of coffee today and my stomach is paying for it awfully, which is why i'm too sick to be in class right now. seriously, like the doctor said--NO MORE caffeine.

where did all of my glitter-fueled energy go to? i'm usually so much more chipper and talking about rainbows and sparkly dresses.. oh yeah. i'm menstrual. fuck fuck fuckity fuck-fuck. another pair of my panties are ruined forever. i hate you. i hate my puppy. my ass is getting big [Andy is its #1 fan, though]. i want some Marilyn Monroe curls in my hair again. i miss being blonde. i really want to eat some queso. i just really want to go back to my and Andy's home and just relax with bad television and video games.

and kareah made me feel like an ass the other day. apparently my ex wasn't being weird. either he or kareah legitimately had a dream about me and he was only commenting on how uncanny it was that we saw each other. larry wasn't being inappropriate or creepy. it was just a neat, little coincidence. sorry kareah. you should know by now how i react when i get uncomfortable. i don't do good in those situations. thank goodness that they're rare! and you'll have fun at this university when you transfer in the fall. the knowledge that you glean from academics to spirituality is priceless.

[bragstart]
i feel a little better now that i have some relaxation planned. maybe my honey will pick us up some dinner of my choice tonight. did i mention how much i LOVE our new house?! it's an actual house, not the apartments that i had been looking at. we live next to a cop, so there's no trouble to deal with. we have a huge front yard. plenty of room and mulch for my gardening. it's three bedrooms and two bathrooms. washer and dryer connections. we have cable and pretty decorations! an antique gold lamp from the thrift store. i got a couch from freecycle AND we have a new loveseat, chair and ottoman set in a navy/purple color. i even bought a matching pink pillow and patched it up for prettiness! i could go on about the gorgeous coffee table and hardwood floors, BUT i'll just post pictures of the housewarming party eventually. no ones likes to bragged to, even if the bragger is as cute as i am!
[endbrag]

since i miss all of my friends so much, i'd love to hear about your most awful moods when you're menstruating. please tell me that i'm not the craziest one. please tell me that someone has thrown a shoe at somebody or something.

ohh, oh what's going on?

i've been less productive for some reasons. i could just pick one from a list actually. but i've been smiling the whole time and even laughing some [and wearing plenty of eyeliner]! here's recent news from my personal "life" in bullet form:

• my old uni's football team made a HUGE college football celebrity cry

• been having baby fever and dreaming of fuzzy-headed biracial babies because when i remove my NuvaRing, my hormones want me to be crazy
• fought with screamed at my Old Man and had a BIG discussion with him, his mother, and his nephew about my food cravings also because of my hormones : (
• wore a wig out in the snow to go listen to some live music! and got asked to dance at least ten times
  
• finished transferring universities to a nice, liberal arts school here at home after a semester at a junior college!!
• ate some delicious Minestrone from an old Italian recipe for the first time--Andy's mommy is a beautiful Italian woman who can cook like no one else!
• been studying until i forget to eat in between times
• stopped consuming caffeine
•  discovered a new soda that has St. John's Wort, chamomile, lavender, and everything BUT weed in it. it has a warning to not consume it before driving and to not drink more than one bottle a day. it scares me.

have fun winding down your semesters and making plans for your holiday breaks! mine's gonna be awesome and filled with all of the things that make me so genuinely happy!

random and overheard from a friend:

creepy Halloween experience one of my girls had in old University Town.

"random guy last night: "let me guess... you're aunt jemima?" me: "uhhhh no i'm little red riding hood." random guy: "omg i'm so sorry! here let me give you a hug... don't be afraid i know i'm black but i won't rape you cuz i'm actually gay." ^ weirdest encounter with a stranger i've ever had."

ahhh, the craziness and misfortune of disgustingly drunk people! i'm seriously more afraid of being raped by one of my best friends than random black guys. what a sick way to think about one's own race. heh.

Yaya!

baby, i neeeed your lovin' -- GOT to have aaaaalll your lovin'!

she's attacking my MiMaw now. MiMaw is walking on a pink cane. gotta go save her! :-D

crossing my fingers..

i think that i just found a new home for myself and the mister. not too excited about the $300 pet deposit though. thanks, Yaya, you awful, awful [but amazingly adorable] puppy.

it's a nice gated community, the rentals are old but newly renovated, which means that i get to have all of that old-fashioned space all fixed up with practical rent expense. it's clean. it's not "in the hood." Andy wouldn't have to worry about leaving me there some nights when he has practice. the neighbors are not shady, out-of-control characters. it's not an eyesore [actually quite attractive]. i'm excited, but it's just a possibility now. i'm in no rush to move out again.


my birthday was so special. Andy's family loaded me with presents and cake, even a singing candle. part of my gifts were the first season to FX's Sons of Anarchy [oh yeah!] and matching Snuggees for me and my puppy! i even got a new Placebo albumn that i've never heard of. it sounds divine, of course.

i need to eat--i can feel my blood sugar dropping :-( i've been quitting all of the yucky antidepressants that i've been taking. that mixture of chemicals was hardly effective AND i had awful side effects [nightmares, nausea, no libido, ahhh!]. my treatment is now going in a completely organic route. multivitamin everyday, St. John's Wort regulary, soon some Maca powder and sulfur supplents, Ginko perhaps, and some Rhodiola rosea. it's already been working wonders and saving me A LOT of money. i feel like i've got my own apothecary going on!..

but yeah, getting back to locating some food!

busy, but stopping in.

hope all of y'all are having a super weekend! i've been getting into the swing of my new job. been doing so well that my boss said that he was going to quit! aww, thanks! also at my job,  i saw my ex with a friend in the area while i was on break. i spoke to him and he showed off his new Little One. he left, came back, and hung around--but i was too busy with guests to chat with folks. also some kid from my old high school came in and was tactless to me. he said, "Hey, girl! I wanna sweet tea!" i wasn't bothered at all... i got him one and smiled and said "My name is Cheniece!"

i'm about to head downtown now to have a beer and listen to some live blues music. hope that you're having nearly as much fun as i'm having! also, check out my article on EFT. it's informative and interesting.

random, fun links that i'm spilling out tonight!
my puppy Yaya's Dogster page
"For Loving Me" by Peter Paul and Mary
my Fbook page for those of you who want to be friends and nose around in my pictures and have me do the same to you!


later!

GALA MADE ME DO IT!

i DO need a t-shirt which says Gala Made Me Do It!
i adore her and i was eager about following her advice on the uses of Jojoba Oil--SO eager, that i swiped some from my fiancé's house the day that i read her article to put it in my hair and on my face. shhhh, i'll buy another bottle for him immediately, or whenever i have the funds [which is more than likely to NOT be immediately].

here is her cute comment about my intent for blatant thievery! just some nonsense cuteness that i felt like sharing. i AM a Gala groupie and i can't deny it. [/end fangirly geekout]

i start my new job today! but where is the weekend?

omg omegle.com!

you know the cool site where you can talk to strangers? i think that i was textually harassed by one of the stranger of those strangers.

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Connecting to server...

Looking for someone you can chat with. Hang on.

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

A word of advice: "asl" is boring. Please find something more interesting to talk about!

You: hey!

Stranger: Hey! m/f?

You: i'm female

You: yourself?

Stranger: male

Stranger: age? im 17

You: i'm 20

Stranger: ok

You: what's up?

Stranger: not much

Stranger: just kicking back

You: me too!

You: this site is pretty cool.

You: where are you from?

Stranger: i live in georgia usa

You: sweet! [my location]

Stranger: cool

You: yep. the south is great.

You: what music do you like?

Stranger: umm alternative rock just not emo....and country

You: i hate emo too.

You: i love classic rock

Stranger: so are you hott?

You: haha. i think that i'm cute

Stranger: nice

You: yep, i think so.

Stranger: u a virgin

You: no

Stranger: nice tits?

You: are you getting off to this?

Stranger: depends on how u answer the question..but im getting hard

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i think i told him that i thought that my whole body was beautiful before i got up from my computer laughing!  if anyone else has any interesting adventures there, let me know. you've got a lot to compete with! should i try it again, just for kicks? will i get a rapist next time? a sex offender or just a murderous schizo? chivalry isn't just dead, it's extinct with  prehistoric life or mutated to criminal perversion.

advices and purple toes.

i've been the receiver of some comforting words of wisdom in my day. my stone-faced dad isn't the most verbal type, but here's what he had to say to me one day:

"you can't worry about tomorrow until it gets here. you can only deal with today."

woah, right? i think that this is is similar to a Bible verse for any who might have an idea of what i'm referencing. tomorrow will bring enough troubles of its  own, and such. really powerful, if you think about it when you feel overwhelmed and anxious like i do often.

and here is what i've gotten in the habbit of reminding myself:
"acknowledge all of the little wins in life, because the big fails will always bring their own share of  negative attention from your mother, Trustmark Bank, your gynecologist, etc."

valuable stuff right? i thought so.
also, look at this little jewel that i found while riding in the backseat of my own car!..

 

Artmatic Pearly Grape nail polish! i got it in a shopping bag full of loot from a thrift store a while back. gonna be an artful change from my midnight blue and sparkly toenails. i'm going to have fun with this right now! or at least right after i finish puppysitting my new baby. that's right--me and Andy have a new addition!... she's got four legs, a tail, and floppy ears. Queenie Bella, i'm thinking. 

alright, have fun with yourselves and make your life an adventure!

ciao and crazy love,

cherry.

it got down and wanted to come up! why me?

this is what was yummy. this is what made me sick. this is what made me down an overdose of Benadryl just so i could get to sleep and forget about my nausea last night. now i just want to rent a cool movie or two and not worry about any obligations.

cuuuute!

i know: i have to work out and take my vitamins before i get my day really started, but i couldn't resist. is it wrong that my new best friends only come up to my knees? i think not. i think that you should be jealous.

After a morning drive.

it's summer. it's a weekend. my hair is clean and straight.. this is a beautiful thing. nothing beats Frank Sinatra [i love Mr. Ole Blue Eyes] during morning dives, but this is pretty good, too:

on a less ideal note, someone called me "bitch" [out of complete love] yesterday and asked why i wouldn't take a glass of Crystal Light and vodka or play RockBand. "bitch, you're supposed to be celebrating with us! congratulations!" sorry! i just didn't want any and i'm not an XBox girl!  oh, my life :)
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and as a side note for myself--who in the hell is from Indianola? whoever it is, they're a true fan or just nosy / bored because they were all up in my archives looking for old stuff... i have a new post idea now! i'll suggest a bunch of movies, music, and books for folks to busy themselves in outside of the computer. we can easily forget how rewarding face-to-face interactions and all of the other real-world experiences can be. your own life is [should be] beautiful and it is waiting to be crowned [off of the internet]--by you! do nothing less! get off of the internet today and do something that makes someone wonder..


ciao.

it's just a promise of marriage [with a gorgeous white gold and diamond ring]

i'm silly; forgive me. my spirits need lifting right now.


but it's OK. tomorrow i get to do my pilates workout and tackle this mess of hair on my head! productivity and positivity. ahh!!!

whoop, whoop! i'm so happy! i'll explain the change of privacy preference later. or not :) last night i stepped out on the town and went hardcore till 2 AM with none other than MiMaw, my grandmother! we were at my future in-laws' blues spot listening to amazing music and watching people get drunk. i met a sweet vampire lady and she toasted me! i even let her bite... my hotdog with all of the fixings. here is a totally unrelated picture of my gorgeous diamond-shaped face and another of my engagement ring and flower arrangement. thanks, Andy's Grandma!

i'm a fiancée!

oh, alright. i did it. I. Did. It. i got engaged. not a fake high school-aged "engagement" without a ring, but with immature sex and horny love--but a slightly older engagement with lots of every kind of sex and even more horny love.

i've been taking pictures of my ring since the morning after it happened and i could still tear up when some of my college pals call me from the next state over to ask about proposal details. "ahhhhh!"

i'm not going to turn into one of those crazy marriage-minded bridezilla bitches. i CANNOT become more crazy than i already am; there just simply isn't any room.

catching up on all of my commenting now. thanks for all of the "aww"s and "congrat"s! gotta hurry up and party tonight!

ciao.

ahhh!!! :D

i haven't stopeed screaming/crying since yesterday when it happened! what does this mean? will i stop being so cool? will i gain weight? will i get pregnant [HEL NO!]?

more than likely, i'll just continue to be fabulous with this ring on my finger. i'll post the whole proposal story later and upload it to our wedding website. that. guy. is. smart. and i'm damned lucky and SO HAPPY! i'm in a cloud of love so thick it's making other people sick! haha--and my mom told Andy "no givsies backsies!" after she expressed how glad she was to get rid of me :D

no baby so no fathers' day!!!

what?

yeah.

me and andy headed out to stare at a cup of my urine while we waited for the strip to turn pink. one line; not pregnant, right?


then where were my lady days for an additional week? i never thought that i would actually wish them upon myself. there was a lot of sitting on my ass and waiting and worrying and acquiring some Yaz.

what if i was pregnant? even if i doubted it with good reasoning severely.. am i ready to get fat, sacrifice my time and money or andy's time and money to raise some bad-ass little zebra-striped biracial baby?

well, i'm obviously not. and good thing, too. i have nothing to worry about! i have the Pill to take now. andy is gorgeous. my legs are all smooth. andy's parents are out of state for an entire week which gives me and him free reign over that big ole house... but i'm bleeding. i even blessed his thigh mid-nookie with the surprise of no babies. FAIL.

and i feel like shit. happy fathers' day to anyone! [not me and andy :)] ciao.

start of summer 09

somebody had to do it!
i'm home and everybody wants it to be FOR GOOD. and it feels good right now, so maybe i'll stay. lot's of exciting things happening at home. my boyfriend's older brother bought some property in a historic district downtown and he's turning it into a bar / hangout spot. i'm excited! it'll be an easy, comfortable way for me [and any of my buddies] to get involved in the night life with no gunshots and no "one-race-only" atomosphere.

also, i'm really excited about: raising five kittens, being with my little cousins, eating breakfast for the first time EVER, thrifting, buying video games, being with Andy and remembering how exactly in love with him i am.

woah! a Trojan Condoms commercial just played.. "ride out these tough times together," America? that's some thick innuendo! using protection should not be too hard to stay on top of!

things i'm going to do this summer

• buy a MacBook


• watch the new Wolverine movie and convince folks that it was Andy's idea


• hang out at Frank Jones' Corner


• maybe move home and get a place?!!


• purchase and read a book for leisure


• get a job that doesn't involve me digging up old, orange booty shorts of mine
  

things i've done so far

• make friends with ladies in the wig shop


• have a dog kiss me in the mouth


• gotten a prescription for BC


• add on to my personal literary projects


• eat way too much Subway


• fought with both of my little brothers in one day [actually in five minutes]
  

hope everyone gave each and every woman in his or her life who has ever been pregnant the BIGGEST kiss ever on sunday. haven't blogged in forever, but now i feel like i should do it even less often and expand my life some more. i'm going to live my life and leave you wishing that you could live it too!

everyone should do this! be a busy, cocky asshole. i've done it before and free time shouldn't get in the way of it.

quotes [and happy summer]!

i'm not going to have time to really, formally blog again until after this week. so everyone have a great start of summer! i know that I'M going to :)

and i leave you with these cutsie things i picked up from photobucket:

thanks!

i'm back and i DO feel so much better! thanks for all of the encouragement! i needed it badly and soon i'll get back to being so overly optimistic [is there a such thing?] that i'll have to encourage each of my readers everyday. how does that sound?

my break was fab. ate a helluva lot. i needed to desperately because all of my jeans are falling off of my booty. gotta ask Santa for some tush for Xmas. not even a dog wants just a bone!

stayed home an extra day. successfully lied to my parents about it, although they wouldn't have really cared. Andy's father saw us sneaking out of the house early this morning when he had no previous idea that i had even spent the night. oops. i'm positive that his parents are aware of the nature of our relationship, but who wants to acknowledge the evidences until a ring is involved? now Andy has to deal with the coming confrontation while i'm back in my apartment conditioning my hair! hee hee! poor Baby of mine! it's like high school again..

anyway, i'm crying at wedding photos and craving grilled chicken salad. i need to finish off my fuzzy head before a meeting tonight. i might be going Greek! how about that!

btw, isn't Tori Amos a goddess?

be brilliant and beautiful! ciao.

marital rape is legal

assuming the worst, that is. i almost threw up when i read this article from the Bust magazine website. apparently, a married woman can't refuse sex from her husband if this bill is passed. how disgusting. if that country doesn't want the world to think that it's full of monkeys, then a bad job is being done of it. i could spit in the supporters' eyes. don't fuck with me and women's rights.

on a lighter note:

TGIF!!! i need a break! i've been pissing blood thanks to a sanitation issue, but i'm better. i drove an hour away to be with my manfriend for the weekend while he was performing. credit card statements will go back to my house stating "EconoLodge." how classy. i literally walked up onto a celebrity downtown there: i noticed some old guys flirting with me, so i asked them for a light for my Andy's cigar since they were talking to me. turns out, one of them is C. L. Blast [and here]. he introduced himself and showed me a picture of himself with Isaac Hayes from way back when they used to perform together. then i asked him to sign my program. it was great. he had forgotten what year it was and it was so cute.

after we left the hotel together, one of Andy's teachers said to him "I know that you're gonna play good today!" the jazz performances were great. yes, Andy does it all. him and his university sounded divine and jazz isn't even my cup of tea.

i need another break soon. i miss singing "Bohemian Rhapsody" with Andy in the van. i miss kicking someone in my sleep. i don't miss nearly killing everyone on I-20 on my drive there and back for that weekend.

tried to pull the pregnancy joke on my mom for April 1st. she cursed me the fuck out and and told me to buy a test to make sure. then she said that she was coming after me with a clothes hanger. shit. she got the joke and started laughing and apologized for calling me a skank-ass whore. she was SO angry! it was funny how Andy went from being her "favorite son-in-law" to "that sorry motherfucker" in two seconds. Daddy laughed and said that he would choke the shit out of him until he turned purple--and marriage? no one is taking his daughter unless they're employed, have a house, two cars, and are damned near running for Congress first!

oh boy.


me and C.L. Blast and his signature both taken with my Pantech C150.