no words.

okay. this is old:
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Monday, January 01, 2007

LARRY CAN KISS BETWEEN MY TOES. HIM AND HIS MOMMA. Current mood: devious Category: Life THIS IS FUNNY AS HELL. I AM SO FUCKING ANGRY. DON'T LIKE IT, KISS MY ASS. YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ELSE TO ME. MY BOYFRIEND IS ALREADY GONE. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------According to the McGee's, i am lucifer. i am unsuitable to marry their son. they have their wish. they should go celebrate. Camile [his mother who teaches at Chastain, Chastain folk, you know who i'm talking about], Laurie, and whoever else can all go be elated in their holiness and uprightness, pretentiousness, hypocrisy. it is so funny what happened today. i saw larry on MySpace and messaged him out of habbit; the conversation was casual enough at first. "yeah, i heard that song!" "that's cool!" and then the heavy stuff. i don't know how it happened but we were arguing online. i kept telling larry that he broke up with me and i'm still standing you son-of-a-bitch and no you can't have anything from me! and larry kept incriminating me of bullshit. see my language, McGees? i AM the fucking DEVIL. the guy got me crying and told me that he didn't want me completely out of his life. sounds familliar, huh, amber? i told him that NO, you can't have that from me! none of my heart can be yours! a relatrionship like that causes more drama than necessary, ladies listen to me. he gave me the damned number and i took it like the pathetic little bitch that i was feeling like. that lasted a minute until Mrs. Smith got involved. she told me to get rid of it and tell that little boy to go to hell and kiss the inside of my ass in the bad way. so i texted larry back saying thanks, but no thanks. your cell is not doing me a favor. go on with your life. and where in the hell did this new cell phone come from? the broke bastard cant afford to feed me but he has a new cell phone? he's probably been lying to me and has had it all along... whatever. i deleted his number; i honestly can't remember it. whatever girl is calling him now, have fun, bitch!!!! i call the boy at his house--the only number that i know by heart, by memory, and told him that i was coming over to get my shoes that i left over there. i get there and ring the doorbell and larry is not at the door. Mr McGee answers and asks "who is it?" i say cheniece about 3 times, as if he can't remember the only girl who is dumb enough to put up with his son-in-law. the screen/gate part of the door is still closed and he HANDS ME THE SHOES THROUGHT THE DOOR!!!!! like feeding a goat at the petting zoo!!!! i have four feet now like the bitch that i am! anyway. before i can ask why they have locked me outside, Mr. McGee says that he can't unlock the gate; he can't find his key. then larry's momma says that larry is in the tub, so couldn't come in.... WHICH DAMNED EXCUSE DO YOU WANT TO USE???? whatever, i don't want holy water to burn my skin anyways. why didn't larry come to the door? i want him to see me standing. I'M STILL STANDING, LARRY! I'M STILL STANDING, CAMILLE AND LAURIE, HELENA, AND WHOEVER ELSE CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF TRYING TO RUIN ME. the fact is, your son' your brother doesn't DESERVE ME, BITCH! Other Grievances Against Larry and his Hipocritical Family 1) What kind of Christians have room to judge me as unsuitable when one of their daughters have a daughter of her own out of wedlock? 2) What kind of Christians have room to judge me as unsuitable when their son is bringing weapons to school? 3) What kind of boyfriend spends 2 thousand on a guitar and not two dollars on a hot dog. Not to mention he couldn't pay for tuition at school and wants me to be sympathetic to him having to scrounge up money for that instead of treating me? Manage your damned money, you broke-ass loser! 4) What kind of guy won't kiss and show affection to me? TO ME? I'm fucking beautiful! I THINK THAT LARRY IS GAY ANYWAY. HE'S TOO HOMOPHOBIC TO BE COMFORTABLE WITH HIS SEXUALITY. thank goodness we didn't have unprotected sex, or else I would have had AIDS. that's right, he wasn't screwing me is because he prolly daydreams about the same guys that I do! 5) How is your momma going to tell me who to marry when she is on her second husband herself? Let's see: she can't even call him by his first name and has to settle for "Mr' McGee" because his first name is LARRY, the name of her UNSUITABLE FIRST HUSBAND, and the name of her LOSER SON. 6) Why would a suitable guy refuse to go to the PROM with me? 7) What kind of broke-ass joke can't afford to attend a football game to to watch me perform? He had to wait outside until the end of the fourth quarter several times to pick me up, only so he could cock block any guys that would talk to me while saving five dollars. 8) He doesn't treat me like a fucking princess. 9) He doesn't like me weraring a wig when his momma owns TWO OF EM. 10) I could go on easily. I SO DON'T CARE IF I HURT HIS FEELINGS. I ONLY TOLD THE TRUTH! GOODBYE, LARRY. I TOLD YOU IT WOULD BE TOO SIMPLE TO GET OVER YOU. hope you and your family have had fun in ruining your life. i hope you don't turn gay like all of the signs are pointing to. have fun cutting NIGGAZ hair. hope none of them have AIDS and bleeds on you when you cut them with those crooked-ass lines to attempt to do. i'm ready to go to Hooters and talk to fine-ass guys who have plenty of time and interest for me, not to mention--real jobs and money.

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now to add on to the list:
he let's his old hoodrat friends ruin my life. won't support me when i'm dealing with the police and lawyers about to lose my space on campus. tells the bitch that she can move in with him afterwards while me and him are still together. i confront him about it and he goes fishface. says that he wouldn't do it. does it anyway. bitch is sleeping in his bed with him today. larry still can't be a man for me, support me, defend me, or just even be there. and this little hood rat bitch gets all of his resources. well, his family should be proud. kareah is obviously so likable. she's a near felon and classless. i don't see how she's been a family babysitter for so long. i don't give a damn if she's funky, can play guitar, and dresses like a dyke. i thought that real men wanted REAL women. if larry is okay for settling for something that prolly has a bigger penis than he does, then it's all good. i have simply gone through way too much with larry over the past year. it's obviously not meant to be. him, his sorry family, and his sorry friends can go make a happy life with their righteous attitudes.

geez, i guess i can't do worse so here's to definitely looking up. thanks best friend and all of the other sensible friends out there who are helping me see through this. you were right: i should have never got back involved with him to begin with. good luck to any other girls who tries anything with him. maybe she'll be stupid and classless enough to enjoy the treatment--kind of like kareah!

i ♥ men.

i ♥ men of colour:
how can one not when exposed to the face of marc minardi [i'm reducing to my twelve year old, teeny-bopper self] or even someone else that i happen to know personally. no names; he's an Adonis of Arabic-speaking men, i'll say. now that i'm single, i'm getting the chance to pause and experience, for the first time in a while, the feeling of EXPLORING men. i mean, taking the time to pause and actually smile just because a butt is cute or the cologne is nice. its wonderful having the option to look at butts that aren't in pajamas 24/7. nice to actually use my biological tricks and get the fun attention that i deserve: winking at a suave man who is smiling back at me. wearing my little black dress and one pair of pumps or another to a classy bar and eyeing the prospects, all smartly dressed, deliciously smelling, tall, tight-assed, and dark skinned.

if you haven't guessed after my short survey, i like the butts! the facial hair, the broad chests.. finally growing out of having such a narrow preference for the lanky, pale ones. i have a wider real of adoration now and it's all thanks to some random, recent event. it's deliciously naughty and i'll share when i have more time to. all involving an olive-skinned, Arabian man with a degree and a cute ass.

i'm putting on a pair of pumps right now.. i've spritzed perfume in all of the right places: the cleavage, the pulse spots, between my thighs. i have a tight, little party dress and clean hair. my makeup is always flawless, whether i go out or not.

i really DO have to go now. tonight is sure to be enjoyable, if not completely memorable and worth it.

another stupid guy.

you know i normally don't post actual names, but the REALLY STUPID ones have to be allowed for laughs when i need one later.

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Lyrickz

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Joey aka Lyrickz

Today at 1:10am

What it do,

I just launched my Facebook Muscian's Page, and i'd apprecite it for real if you could stop by and check it out. Ya know, listen to a few songs (if you havent already), become a fan if you like, and share the news with your friends/enemies/teachers/parole officers...real talk. I got a coupla potentially big things in the works and i want to include everyone who's interested in them.

Check it out sometime,
Lyrickz.

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Lyrickz

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Cherry Shonté

Today at 1:12am

no.

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Joey aka Lyrickz

Today at 1:18am

...i expected that from you.
eh w/e

Cherry Shonté

Today at 1:20am

:)

Cherry Shonté

Today at 1:21am

then why even add me to the thread and then click submit?

Joey aka Lyrickz

Today at 1:22am

cause im in the rhythm. Im on the S's. I started not to, since you never respond to any mass message you happen to get from me, but i added you just in case tonite you were feeling especially good...

..guess you arent

Cherry Shonté

Today at 1:29am

since when do i have to be "extra good" to go looking at stuff that i'm not interested in? sorry you didn't know that i don't really care about all of that and didn't get the drift. i guess i should apologize because you assume what i care about and cant take a hint? im sure as hell NOT going to become a "fan" of someone just because they ask me to, especially if they were a friend first. that's for people to do out of blind adoration, which i don't have for you.

sorry?

Joey aka Lyrickz

Today at 1:35am

You're wrong...

See the MAJORITY of my fb friends ARE familar with my music (most VERY familiar), so they already know what the deal is. You think i'd even find 60 som'n people willing to go thru the trouble of adding a application to their already-clutterd profile simply because a nobody asked them to? BE FOR REAL MA.
As far as cant take a hint, people only take what you give them. Last time i checked, i didnt read minds, ma...sorry.
Whether YOU become a "fan" or not is not really a big issue. After all, if you cant tell, that message is entirely copied and pasted and wasnt constructed SOLELY for the purpose of luring YOU in. Frankly i couldnt care less being that all it took was two clicks to add you to that thread anyway...no big loses over here.

blind adoration...thats cute

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Cherry Shonté

Today at 1:43am

you be for real.
so i apologize again for not being one of your best buddies and caring?
i still dont see where i'm wrong... i just see that if you didn't expect me to click, then you shouldn't have wasted your two seconds to add me to your copy and paste message and waste both of our time, right? dont get pissed when i tell you how i feel about you cluttering my inbox. simple and makes sense, right?
im not any of your "ma" by the way buddy. oh wait, i'm not even your buddy cuz i dont care about your music. its obviously a crime. take me to jail for not being a groupie to some unoriginal idea?

bye! i'll block you from contacting me now and you can tell all of your friends how big of a bitch i am and i can tell all of mine how smart you are. how is THAT for not a big loss? i think that i actually win!!! yay!!! ♥♥♥

Joey aka Lyrickz

Today at 1:49am

The mind is capable of rationalizaton to the highest degree of irrationality, i tell ya. If that sensless reply makes you feel you won, then who am i to take away your "joy".

Frankly no cares about you not liking my music, im sure more than a few dont....most just arent little bitches about it. But you seem to already know that about yourself, and i found out you cant do anything to a bitch who knows she's a bitch. So w/e...i'll be that.

You're not my "ma"...? C'mon MA, thats the classic, suburban, corny observation. As i said before....BE FOR REAL.

And if you have a problem receiving the one or two messages a year i send you,then delete me. Trust me, i wont be crying myself to sleep tonight over it.

BIG LOSS.
WOW.

Cherry Shonté

Today at 1:58am

well PA, or whatever:
yeah, it really is. go pound your chest for agreeing that i'm a bitch. such a big loss for me too! go take your suburban lingo and "music" to people who care and arent little bitches about it now.

i'll delete this message like i did with your others and put you on my block list now like i do with all the other wastes of my time.

again, so sorry about your obviously bad or underthought decision to bother someone who is obviously uninterested [only if you're smart enough]. i'm such a bad person and this all such a HORRIBLE loss to me, i assure you [so says a future author and physician]!!!!

oh, boo me darling!
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and now his status is for me to be taken off of his penis. who's more wrong? me for possibly being a bitch, or this guy who is all out of substance and has to resort to a sexual war. oooh, a penis! i'm scared and offended out of my mind at his ignorance!!! why would i ever have his probably AIDS-stricken member when there are so many better ones out there? ones that are on men with DEGREES and culture [not to mention real careers along with their art]?

i'm back!

hmm.
well, now that THAT'S over:
i'm getting back to charismatic self: the character, the girl with the heart of gold and probably the lungs of dust, the chick you want to hate because you don't have these "balls" that i do, or something like that that a friend told me, a woman who doesn't fall into any lines comfortably, who evades classification and the judgment of a probably-not-so-anonymous, annoying, but appreciated "blog surfer." thanks for reminding me that instead of being pathetic and depressed after breaking up with a man that i've loved my whole heterosexual life [can you blame me for being depressed?], i can instead opt to be my fabulous, eccentric, and waaaay sexier than YOU-self!

it was him who fucked up! put me in a car wreck and tell the runaway bitch-ass driver that it was okay. fraternizing and offering a place to stay to some homeless bitch whose family can't even love her after she failed at ruining my life several times while he all but acquiesced to the action! who the fuck travels to another state and spends more time with the psycho-ass girl whom you are NOT dating and ignore the other psycho-ass girl [the girlFRIEND] to go getta tattoo while she's in class [and skipping out on giving me a birthday present that day, too]. who lets his insane-ass sister who needs to go get married and calm the fuck down lift a finger to his significant other when it's not the girlfriend who's dishing all of the bad moves? larry can keep his philosophy since that's surely the only way into Heaven, the only path of righteousness. he can also kiss my frail, bony ass right after i've shit myself.

i'm on drugs again. nothing illegal, never illegal controlled substance. im wired on some chemistry from a little orange bottle and now my grades are going to be awesome, i'll get into my dream school and have my dream life, i'll be happy and rich [lucky me], and you can pump my gas and larry can be playing his bass on the other side of town where i won't hear it. he will have devoted his every resource to kareah and pissed off another girl who has waaay more common sense than i do and she's gonna kill him. hmm.. maybe he'll wake up and do someone right in more ways than one. not me, though. all i have is a tired vagina with war wounds and the skills to suck a guy off within an inch of his existence. thanks, Monogamy-with-the-Wrong-Person!

contemplating keying the shit out of his and his mother's car. really don't feel like being in jail this weekend, though. shit. i'd like to not think that it's so childish to believe that people get what they deserve.. i dont have to throw eggs at his momma's paint job, right? the dummy will learn where he's wrong? we'll both get what we deserve? a pot head bitch in his apartment for him and a medical degree, cosmopolitan intelligence and culture, and a sexy surgeon/professional athlete husband for me?

i'll blog later and you can't wait. fuck you if you can wait. i'm too much of a gorgeous fiend to care about the whims of people who aren't me. there are a million of you, however, and you already know my URL! :)

--ciao.

larry really sucks, simply.

i'm so through with larry and trying to accommodate his ways by sacrificing my own comfort.. that isn't to say that i've ever expected him to be perfect, or that i'm even a perfect person on my own. hell, i've cheated on him before--more than once. and this reason that i've ended now, he's fucked up in the same way more than once [in the past couple of months, even]. he's just so awful. he can't be a man in any way except when it comes to telling me to respect him [while he's doing bitchy stuff like talking to kareah and trying to bring the bitch back home so she can ruin his life there]. i'm so outdone by his behavior... let's just say that i haven't abandoned him when it comes to his health and welbeing, or let my insane-ass sister with the bastard baby try to jump him because he's still in college [he's not, by the way], or let my mother put him out... i could go on, but the fact of the matter is that larry is a coward, cheap-o, immature, unfair, bitch specimen of the trashiest of men.

that's all.