where did it all go? oh, wait.

me and my fiancé's sister at a New Year's Eve party at THE best place to listen to live music and hang out around here! and guess what? it's family-owned and i feel like i'm at home there! i sit at The Girldfriends'/Old Ladies' Table, keep paws off of Andy, and have drinks and dance!

i. am. so. tired. today has been a little rough so far: i snuck in cup of coffee today and my stomach is paying for it awfully, which is why i'm too sick to be in class right now. seriously, like the doctor said--NO MORE caffeine.

where did all of my glitter-fueled energy go to? i'm usually so much more chipper and talking about rainbows and sparkly dresses.. oh yeah. i'm menstrual. fuck fuck fuckity fuck-fuck. another pair of my panties are ruined forever. i hate you. i hate my puppy. my ass is getting big [Andy is its #1 fan, though]. i want some Marilyn Monroe curls in my hair again. i miss being blonde. i really want to eat some queso. i just really want to go back to my and Andy's home and just relax with bad television and video games.

and kareah made me feel like an ass the other day. apparently my ex wasn't being weird. either he or kareah legitimately had a dream about me and he was only commenting on how uncanny it was that we saw each other. larry wasn't being inappropriate or creepy. it was just a neat, little coincidence. sorry kareah. you should know by now how i react when i get uncomfortable. i don't do good in those situations. thank goodness that they're rare! and you'll have fun at this university when you transfer in the fall. the knowledge that you glean from academics to spirituality is priceless.

[bragstart]
i feel a little better now that i have some relaxation planned. maybe my honey will pick us up some dinner of my choice tonight. did i mention how much i LOVE our new house?! it's an actual house, not the apartments that i had been looking at. we live next to a cop, so there's no trouble to deal with. we have a huge front yard. plenty of room and mulch for my gardening. it's three bedrooms and two bathrooms. washer and dryer connections. we have cable and pretty decorations! an antique gold lamp from the thrift store. i got a couch from freecycle AND we have a new loveseat, chair and ottoman set in a navy/purple color. i even bought a matching pink pillow and patched it up for prettiness! i could go on about the gorgeous coffee table and hardwood floors, BUT i'll just post pictures of the housewarming party eventually. no ones likes to bragged to, even if the bragger is as cute as i am!
[endbrag]

since i miss all of my friends so much, i'd love to hear about your most awful moods when you're menstruating. please tell me that i'm not the craziest one. please tell me that someone has thrown a shoe at somebody or something.

why? and some answers.

just some sadly amusing self-refection for me while i'm PMSing:

• why am i having two periods this month? switching from Yaz to the Ring [and then back again] is killing my iron supply. i'm just going to wear a diaper everyday just in case. at least there aren't any babies. my puppy is way too much.
  

• why is Andy such an attractive smartass? my facebook feed alerted me that Andy and one of my exes were friends days ago, along with other completely need-to-know news. Larry requested to be friends and Andy accepted to be an arrogant asshole.. just because the both of them call themselves musicians of some kind doesn't mean that Andy is "friends" with him. but facebook encourages this sort of interaction. i've got tons of  "friends" myself. and i love Andy--even his bad jokes. [have you read our proposal story?]
  

• should i have a joint bank account with my fiancé? because we're going to share the same expenses in January, does it mean that everything should be AndyandCheniece? what about our lease? this is so excitingly overwhelming. either way, me and my mother and my aunt and my grandmother [and..] are going to do most of the decorating in me and Andy's place. oh, yeah!
  

• why am i sick again? i have had a ton of illnesses recently [it's currently stomach flu] because my immune system is as strong as my weight--but the swine flu has not been one of them. ironic. 

• why does my mother refuse to love me?! i'm sick and i just asked her to turn the heat on, and she told me no..  :-(
  

• why am i never satisfied with my blog's layout? someone point me in the direction of some resources for template styling.

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and i know that i've been dead to the blogger world for a while; i've been busy. this post was completely an excercise for my PMSing. i'll get back up to commenting soon! ciao till tomorrow!

my Bday is soon.

some advice from a friend to follow on that special day:

"Sunday 11th October:
Hang a canopy over your bed & have dedicated You time beneath it every Sunday. Tea, biscuits & a good book should be part of the regime!"

wish that i could do this now, but NO!.. somebody has to be a student and wake up before noon and shower and be a contributing member of society tomorrow! i want to kill kittens and slap my puppy in the mouth and throw my Nuvaring at the mailwoman and eat myself into a coma and sleep for twelve hours in my pajamas with the feet in them. i HATE my Lady Days and today, i hate YOU unless you leave me an inspiring comment or some chocolate. sorry, sorry. : ( someone come and take care of me today!
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edit: i really don't hate anyone. i just hate this rainy weather and how some parts of the month make me feel.

laughing at engagement club and lungs.

this is a repost from a failure of a time that i let myself have in the past. i'm giving it new light and laughing at it now because it's very and fabulously relevant!

1. The first rule of Engagement club is: you do not talk about Engagement Club.
2. The second rule of engagement club is: you DO NOT talk about Engagement Club.
3. If a fiancé(e) says "stop," goes limp, taps out, the engagement is over.
4. Only two really hopeful people to an engagement.
5. One engagement at a time.
6. No wedding band, yet no looking back, ether.
7. Engagements will go on as long as they have to [even years].
8. If this is your first night at Engagement Club, you have to make a bigger deal out of it than is necessary.

haha!

this is SO funny. the wedding bells are still chiming in my ear, but i have to remember to step back and not take things so dreadfully serious. no one makes it out alive, but i'm going to be rocking my ring and smiling anyway. if you're not enjoying your time, it's wasted!

just found out that my little brother has a condition where a lobe of his lung is collapsed. it's scary and upsetting, but it corrects itself. he better NOT be trying to die because i always said that it would be me to kill him! biology is SO scary, which is probably why i'm studying it--to conquer it in a way. he'll be fine now that we know what's wrong and that it naturally corrects itself.

even i have difficulties keeping on the sunny side, especially considering this circumstances. i'm smiling tonight. wish me more smiles for my gorgeous face and my family. i wish that i wasn't so bleh feeling and that i could pour out some internet love and hugs to everyone. let's all just take a deep breath and do something productive and wonderful with our days tomorrow.. get up a little earlier than you do normally. work out for thirty minutes. actually do some house work! kiss your mother and little brothers for me. create a fabulous routine to carry yourself through this semester. make some goals, enter them into a cool graphics program and decorate it and frame it over your desk. live more green and healthy. change your hair like one of my lovely blogger friends has just done ;) splurge on Guitar Hero World Tour like my fiance has done and rock out for your friends.

dreading school? GET OVER IT. or just play some Prince and dance around until everything [even horrible classes] is water under your bridge.

i'm off! computer kisses and genuine affection to you dolls.
ciao.

omg omegle.com!

you know the cool site where you can talk to strangers? i think that i was textually harassed by one of the stranger of those strangers.

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Connecting to server...

Looking for someone you can chat with. Hang on.

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

A word of advice: "asl" is boring. Please find something more interesting to talk about!

You: hey!

Stranger: Hey! m/f?

You: i'm female

You: yourself?

Stranger: male

Stranger: age? im 17

You: i'm 20

Stranger: ok

You: what's up?

Stranger: not much

Stranger: just kicking back

You: me too!

You: this site is pretty cool.

You: where are you from?

Stranger: i live in georgia usa

You: sweet! [my location]

Stranger: cool

You: yep. the south is great.

You: what music do you like?

Stranger: umm alternative rock just not emo....and country

You: i hate emo too.

You: i love classic rock

Stranger: so are you hott?

You: haha. i think that i'm cute

Stranger: nice

You: yep, i think so.

Stranger: u a virgin

You: no

Stranger: nice tits?

You: are you getting off to this?

Stranger: depends on how u answer the question..but im getting hard

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i think i told him that i thought that my whole body was beautiful before i got up from my computer laughing!  if anyone else has any interesting adventures there, let me know. you've got a lot to compete with! should i try it again, just for kicks? will i get a rapist next time? a sex offender or just a murderous schizo? chivalry isn't just dead, it's extinct with  prehistoric life or mutated to criminal perversion.

it got down and wanted to come up! why me?

this is what was yummy. this is what made me sick. this is what made me down an overdose of Benadryl just so i could get to sleep and forget about my nausea last night. now i just want to rent a cool movie or two and not worry about any obligations.