where did it all go? oh, wait.

me and my fiancé's sister at a New Year's Eve party at THE best place to listen to live music and hang out around here! and guess what? it's family-owned and i feel like i'm at home there! i sit at The Girldfriends'/Old Ladies' Table, keep paws off of Andy, and have drinks and dance!

i. am. so. tired. today has been a little rough so far: i snuck in cup of coffee today and my stomach is paying for it awfully, which is why i'm too sick to be in class right now. seriously, like the doctor said--NO MORE caffeine.

where did all of my glitter-fueled energy go to? i'm usually so much more chipper and talking about rainbows and sparkly dresses.. oh yeah. i'm menstrual. fuck fuck fuckity fuck-fuck. another pair of my panties are ruined forever. i hate you. i hate my puppy. my ass is getting big [Andy is its #1 fan, though]. i want some Marilyn Monroe curls in my hair again. i miss being blonde. i really want to eat some queso. i just really want to go back to my and Andy's home and just relax with bad television and video games.

and kareah made me feel like an ass the other day. apparently my ex wasn't being weird. either he or kareah legitimately had a dream about me and he was only commenting on how uncanny it was that we saw each other. larry wasn't being inappropriate or creepy. it was just a neat, little coincidence. sorry kareah. you should know by now how i react when i get uncomfortable. i don't do good in those situations. thank goodness that they're rare! and you'll have fun at this university when you transfer in the fall. the knowledge that you glean from academics to spirituality is priceless.

[bragstart]
i feel a little better now that i have some relaxation planned. maybe my honey will pick us up some dinner of my choice tonight. did i mention how much i LOVE our new house?! it's an actual house, not the apartments that i had been looking at. we live next to a cop, so there's no trouble to deal with. we have a huge front yard. plenty of room and mulch for my gardening. it's three bedrooms and two bathrooms. washer and dryer connections. we have cable and pretty decorations! an antique gold lamp from the thrift store. i got a couch from freecycle AND we have a new loveseat, chair and ottoman set in a navy/purple color. i even bought a matching pink pillow and patched it up for prettiness! i could go on about the gorgeous coffee table and hardwood floors, BUT i'll just post pictures of the housewarming party eventually. no ones likes to bragged to, even if the bragger is as cute as i am!
[endbrag]

since i miss all of my friends so much, i'd love to hear about your most awful moods when you're menstruating. please tell me that i'm not the craziest one. please tell me that someone has thrown a shoe at somebody or something.

are you teething or just being an ass?!

that's a hot blogger there!

boo-yaow!!! guess who's back like Eminem! i've been being both elusive or just lazy AND conquered by the transition to my new university. i've gone from huge beer bashes and class sizes of 350 to classes where we read a Bible verse each meeting [even if it's a science class] and where EVERYONE knows my name! i'll admit--i kind of like the latter feature :-)

have you missed me? i feel so much more awesome than i actually am when my blogger friends comment on my absence! YOU people are awesome [whaddya mean, you people?] and i can't wait to get back to making positive, quirky, and charming comments on all of your lovely posts again. go ahead and write some award-winning material for me! 2010 [two thousand and amen] is our year--i just know it.

SO:

• i'm not dead.
• i saw my ex, Larry, and he said that i must do voodoo because he still has dreams about me. oooh! he should get in trouble with the mother of his kid for that!
• i'm still cute and football players AND softball players still whistle at me. oh, yeah! hot stuff!
• moved in with my fiancé to our first house!
• i've discovered how to give myself an orgasm through reverse crunches [i am going to get SO fit very quickly].
• i honestly love all of you and i adore my new followers, too. i hope that my new friends can come to like me as much as y'all old bitches do..

give me a day or so to catch up! i can't wait, mes cheres!

and here's an actual photo that i took in my hometown when i was shopping recently:

and i got an award from The Ranting Teenager! go stop by her blog and say nice things!

fragile x, autism, high.

this is just a random emission of mine. born from a conversation i had yesterday from an old friend:

i was talking to an acquaintance from my old university on instant messenger yesterday and my mind played over all of my concerns, ideas, and opinions of this man. i've always considered him to be spacey and even dense. he was unattractively goofy in his mannerisms. he had slight speech problems and was really S-L-O-W to speak and react. his excuse was that he was just being chill. to my knowledge, he didn't do drugs--BUT his eyes always seemed glazed over and had no real focus. he would just gaze into space as if nothing was really there. he would blink like he was constantly waking up from a dream.definitely a goofy spazz of a person.

don't get me wrong, this guy wasn't retarded. he was an engineering major at school. but today i was so perplexed as to his "problem," or just him being him, and i Googled a possible explanation.

Fragile X Syndrome causes symptoms similar to autism:

• Mental retardation
• Tendency to avoid eye contact
• Hyperactive behavior
• Large forehead or ears with a prominent jaw

also, the affected men have atypical social development (i just thought the guy was weird for no reason), shyness, strange vocalization (high pitch, weird sounds, cluttering of words, and strange facial expressions. heh. my acquaintance exhibits all of these things!

but then again, he probably did use drugs (or used drugs as well as being affected by FXS, which would only amplify his condition).

so: Fragile X Syndrome, Autism, or Stoner (a big possibility considering his social crowd)? my mind is enjoying wrapping itself around this. damn, am I a carrier?! are you?

Google Wave Invites!

i've got 8 Google Wave invites to send!!!

"Google Wave is an online tool for real-time communication and collaboration. A wave can be both a conversation
and a document where people can discuss and work together using richly formatted text, photos, videos, maps, and more." -- Google

you can comment with your email address [i hope that you don't get spammed and i'll cross my fingers, sorry], and if i have any invites left, you'll get one from me! and if i run out, you could ask the people that i've already sent one to. and have patience. these things take a while to be mailed out. mine took ten minutes..

TiLT! [edited]

*now fixed for commenting!*

it's time for another lovely Things I Love Thursday! there is so much to pack into this list that i won't even try to fit in everything. i'll save some for friday. and saturday. and everyday because there's plenty to go around the entire week. woot, woot!

 

• my hair. i'm wearing my real hair now, which is amazingly long. i'm always surprised to see how far down my back it is when i remove the extensions.
• my blogger friends. i'm actually becoming quite fond of all of you bitches for some reason. y'all are just so great and pretty and fun! i just want to have a big party and bake cinnamon rolls for you while we watch Sons of Anarchy!
• my new commenting system. i hope that it isn't giving you any trouble. i know that typing in your email address is a chore, but Disqus allows for threading, which is just so cool! that means real replies instead of the @person convention! if you're interested in switching, go ahead and ask me about the experience.
  
• the fact that i can wear boots and a coat over my sundresses to winterize them. somebody's going to be cute, cute, cute tomorrow! do you do this already and does it make you feel extra feminine?
  
• one of my teachers joke flirting with me. while i was taking an exam. "You look different today [my freshly blown-out hair]! What are you doing later?" haha! you silly man!
  
• Andrew's grandmother sewing me a pink pillow! i really love her and all of my second family so much.
  
• my new, hot pink bra with a bell in the middle. you can hear me suspiciously jingling around corners... where is that coming from?
• and this new sex position that my old man and i have come up with. extra nice! excuse me for this isolated and candid emission.

anyone else who participates in Things I Love Thursday, link back to your own lists, or just tell me something nice! and it's almost the weekend! i hope everyone has some fun plans [or just some good sleep] lined up!

ciao!

random and overheard from a friend:

creepy Halloween experience one of my girls had in old University Town.

"random guy last night: "let me guess... you're aunt jemima?" me: "uhhhh no i'm little red riding hood." random guy: "omg i'm so sorry! here let me give you a hug... don't be afraid i know i'm black but i won't rape you cuz i'm actually gay." ^ weirdest encounter with a stranger i've ever had."

ahhh, the craziness and misfortune of disgustingly drunk people! i'm seriously more afraid of being raped by one of my best friends than random black guys. what a sick way to think about one's own race. heh.

Yaya!

baby, i neeeed your lovin' -- GOT to have aaaaalll your lovin'!

she's attacking my MiMaw now. MiMaw is walking on a pink cane. gotta go save her! :-D

crossing my fingers..

i think that i just found a new home for myself and the mister. not too excited about the $300 pet deposit though. thanks, Yaya, you awful, awful [but amazingly adorable] puppy.

it's a nice gated community, the rentals are old but newly renovated, which means that i get to have all of that old-fashioned space all fixed up with practical rent expense. it's clean. it's not "in the hood." Andy wouldn't have to worry about leaving me there some nights when he has practice. the neighbors are not shady, out-of-control characters. it's not an eyesore [actually quite attractive]. i'm excited, but it's just a possibility now. i'm in no rush to move out again.


my birthday was so special. Andy's family loaded me with presents and cake, even a singing candle. part of my gifts were the first season to FX's Sons of Anarchy [oh yeah!] and matching Snuggees for me and my puppy! i even got a new Placebo albumn that i've never heard of. it sounds divine, of course.

i need to eat--i can feel my blood sugar dropping :-( i've been quitting all of the yucky antidepressants that i've been taking. that mixture of chemicals was hardly effective AND i had awful side effects [nightmares, nausea, no libido, ahhh!]. my treatment is now going in a completely organic route. multivitamin everyday, St. John's Wort regulary, soon some Maca powder and sulfur supplents, Ginko perhaps, and some Rhodiola rosea. it's already been working wonders and saving me A LOT of money. i feel like i've got my own apothecary going on!..

but yeah, getting back to locating some food!

weekending!

i'm off to my new job--but everyone DO have a wonderful, wonderful weekend! i'm serious! i'm so serious that i'm not even allowing you to comment... just take my sweet wishes and go on be amazing for the next two days [and everyday afterward].don't go to jail. don't kill any kittens. don't eat too much, don't rape anyone, etc.

making magic and gearing up.

i've been catching up with my blogger friends. if i have recently commented on your post, and you are not linked here [and want to be cool like all of the other people who are], just drop me a line!

i'm not dreading school as much as i thought that i would. i have a lovely secondhand black professional-looking messenger bag now. i can't wait to get some stencils and decorate it with "CHERRY" in big, pink letters. i'm going to rock moving back home and going to college like nobody's business. try to keep up with me!

my little bro is A-OK. his lung is healing and i get to kill him with my own two hands.
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how is your summer winding down? have you been making magic with your time? you better have been. been dancing to Prince? prancing around on balconies and rooftops with a camera? bought some new panties because you manage to ruin all of yours during the Lady Days like i still do? whatever you've been breeding magic into your life with, i'm glad for you and am telling you that everything is going to be OK. nothing is as relieving as the sight of the world moving on.

kisses and hugs and all of that mushy business.
ciao!

blog promotion for prostitutes and rockstars.

as a self-proclaimed blogging connoisseur, as proved by an existence in the Blogosphere since the mid 90s, i'm going to have so much fun with this post: i remember back, at least a decade ago, to my early days of internet whoring.. my own hosted website at an emo-named domain, LiveJournal and OpenDiary have been the instruments of my crime and vanity. my classmates and i had a circle of our vapid overshares in online diary form because we were just so cool. i've read and commented on drug abuse, oral sexin' of boyfriends, beer bashes, debates on how punk the band AFI really was / is, and other  components in the Wasteland of Teenage Angst.

as i got older and the threat of jailtime as well as permanent reputation harm became more real, i matured and formed a more purposeful vision for blogging. i got diagnosed with clinical depression and contemplated my stability online for my own welbeing, sans too many description of sexual encounters, bad music, blue hair dye, and wrist slicing. what i also got interested in was actual promotion. who would have thought that the world was bigger than just myself?! while my classmates were a supportive and depressing audience, i knew that my real friends lived in the computer, states, and even countries, away. how did i reach out to them?

• the gURL.com messageboards has a nice community of ladies who would love to jump on your blog posts if you return the favor. don't forget a shameless and artistic plug in your signature complete with a kissy picture of you and your boyfriend / girlfriend!
• if you're really vain, head to Plugboard.org and link your space with a cute button
• leave comments on other folks' blogs, network, be vain and cool
• join webrings, blog carnivals, etc.
• read some articles from Miss Gala Darling twice
• how to make money from your blog and why to never get a job
• Problogger.net, enough said
  

good luck! and if you become a millionaire celebrity with tons of readers, send me a nice thank you note!

haha!!1!

haha, ohmygosh. this is old, but it sure is funny! Black People Love Us!
i have to show Andy when he gets back. he's on tour in the Northeast for a week right now. i'm so proud of him and i love bragging, as you have just witnessed. my family has enjoyed having me back; they've made some jokes about forgetting what i look like. well, the joke's on them because i'm hanging out with Andy's sister tonight! wooo!

bleh. it's way early. where's my coffee? ciao friends. is anybody dreading the thought of school? actually excited? going to kill yourself or maybe just some kittens?..

cuuuute!

i know: i have to work out and take my vitamins before i get my day really started, but i couldn't resist. is it wrong that my new best friends only come up to my knees? i think not. i think that you should be jealous.

aww, ash!

• my friend ash created this cuteness and tagged it to me. okay--not ONLY to me... as much as i'd like to be that awesome, she has some other cool people in her life besides cherry. i think that gifts every so often are a wonderful idea and they feel amazing for both the giver and the receiver. so how about somebody loan me $600 in return for warm feelings?
  

• also, here is the most hilarious Venn Diagram / flow chart EVER! what to say [or not to say] during sex.

ciao.

whoop, whoop! i'm so happy! i'll explain the change of privacy preference later. or not :) last night i stepped out on the town and went hardcore till 2 AM with none other than MiMaw, my grandmother! we were at my future in-laws' blues spot listening to amazing music and watching people get drunk. i met a sweet vampire lady and she toasted me! i even let her bite... my hotdog with all of the fixings. here is a totally unrelated picture of my gorgeous diamond-shaped face and another of my engagement ring and flower arrangement. thanks, Andy's Grandma!

you could be my best friend if:

you actually have a favorite author [who writes "capital L" literature]
your cat is higher on the social ladder than you [how can it NOT be, actually?]
you could honestly live without a television and not feel as if you have lost a limb
you catch yourself frowning and/or drooling at male strangers for some vague reason that you can't quite put your finger on
your dreams indicate that something is severely wrong. period.
you have very little common sense
glaring grammar fuckeries kill you a little on the inside
you can be difficult to be around because it's your choice
you're grown-as-fuck and still manage to ruin a pair of drawers during your lady days.
you're a beautiful person but your looks have way lower priority than nurturing your mind. 

i've got fans and i'm a bitch [fixed and reposted]

okay! i've fixed the email form! go ahead and resubmit. same post, just spiffied up:

1. 4 return visits. 


2. i've got the IP addy
   


3. i can even kind of tell what area of town she stays in. 


4. referring link is that of one of my blogger friends. 


5. and this is NOT the first time that she's been so smart; look at my "advice" to her.
   

i feel really lame for being the target of a mindless internet grudge and i hate having to feel upset and angry! but some folks are just ape-shit crazy and don't know how to move on.

she's pregnant by my undeserving and sloppy leftovers, emailed me admitting to a sad and self-conscious struggle with trying to be "better" than me [poor girl, it will NEVER happen that way], and borrows folks' blogger friends, just like a mature mother, to fill her void of a life? looks like someone not only doesn't have a life but is trying to be a second-rate copy and live mine. it's a sad, sad thing when folks living in their own alternate realities can't see the truth, but it's entirely flattering! thank you, ladies and gentlemen.. i am thankful for every schizo fan..

i'm honestly never a bitch unless it is absolutely necessary. i'm tired of feeling like i'm throwing a mangy, stray cat away just for the thing to return because i fed it once! so to stop the feeding...

TP & PP is going "friends only" like my old LiveJournal days. here's to more candid posts and protecting your email addresses [and my ass] if you're interested! here's to me moving on and away again. here's to the world continuing to turn.

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quotes [and happy summer]!

i'm not going to have time to really, formally blog again until after this week. so everyone have a great start of summer! i know that I'M going to :)

and i leave you with these cutsie things i picked up from photobucket:

the end and i feel fine [because it's BS]

i'm not allowing you to comment because i'm not around to comment lately. studying is taking over my life, although i made some time to get my hair untangled and clean. i'm at our Science majors' library waiting on my sexy Libran girlfriend to get here. isn't she adorable? i blame it all on her new lip piercing--and she pretty much bums me all of the Camels i want [most of the time]. gotta love Finals.
okay, i'm not dating her. Andy is still my only one. she's just one of the few women who aren't sickening to be around. gotta be because we're both of Venus. her middle name is my first name. she likes the same sorority i do. our birthdays are days apart. we love the same cigs [when we haven't quit]. she gets on my damned nerves.

and if anyone is scared about 2012, get over it: you will see the day ofter Doomsday. The Rapture won't happen because too many people are expecting it. the planet will stay in orbit. it has done so on every 12/21 since the beginning of Time. it has been made certain to me that this day will be nothing to worry about, but it will be weird!

i was pretty antsy about this at one time--i was one of those people in my teens scared off of my ass on the 2000 new year. i was expecting Jesus to break through the ceiling and take me away from the MTV countdown. it hasn't happened yet. it hasn't happened during any of the hundreds of other Doomsday prophecies. it won't happen 12/21/2012 [unless Palin is elected say some funny people].

lighten up. wish me luck on my exams. listen to old Sugar Ray singles. paint your toenails. paint my toenails. pay for prescription of BC. get ready for summer!

Break's over :(

i feel remarkable. i'm so thankful that i have the resources and the strength to get out of bed, even when it feels like i'll never make it through the day. and then i laugh at all the other times that i've felt that way [this month even] as i work out and have some coffee. i feel remarkable.

my Spring Break was slightly uneventful, but i was immensely pleased. i got to argue with my family and eat Mom's cooking. i got to stare up into my boyfriend's face and meet more of his wonderful family. his sister read my feminist rant and hugged me for writing it. it was weird, but i enjoyed agreeing with someone. she's so great. i just can't post about her brother in lewd ways anymore. i'll just keep most of that in my head from now on. it was getting pretty bad; i felt like an 18 yr. old boy.

there was plenty of beer on Bourbon Street. there were also plenty of cabaret girls in their underwear. i ate overpriced crawfish when i could go back home and cook them myself for free. i ate beignets at the fake Café du Monde in Riverwalk Mall. i saw some folks who went to my university. i took a picture of some guy dressed as a jester and i named him Arlechino when his real name is prolly just Jake. my boyfriend fiddled and some woman cried after one of the songs. she had a boyfriend, but she apparently likes musicians a lot. i'm not jealous; i can't blame her!

i didn't see any vampires, but a musician friend of my second family lent me one of her vampire books to read. it's not Anne Rice, but it ain't awful. i'll give it back next time that they tour.

i'm back in Campus Town and i miss home only because i love home a little too much maybe. so it's not really a bad thing. i've got easy decisions to make and experiences to enjoy. i should shower and wash the dishes from breakfast. i should finish the love poem i'm writing and i should write another one to myself!


the Natchez steamer; credit to myself!

a shot of Decatur Street; credit to myself!

laissez-les bons temps mourir? nah.

Spring Break!!!

i'm ready to Spring Break myself all over. here's to a week of bliss: family, church, good food, good music, my significant other, New Orleans or the beach, fun, and other stuff that i might get myself into.

if you're from my home town, not Campus Town, you should head to Hal & Mal's to see my boyfriend and some other good musicians jam on Saturday night 3/14. it's gonna be great; i'm gonna LOOK great. you're not doing shit else anyway. support local music! you'll love it!

no comments. everyone have fun and be safe/smart! take pictures!