fragile x, autism, high.

this is just a random emission of mine. born from a conversation i had yesterday from an old friend:

i was talking to an acquaintance from my old university on instant messenger yesterday and my mind played over all of my concerns, ideas, and opinions of this man. i've always considered him to be spacey and even dense. he was unattractively goofy in his mannerisms. he had slight speech problems and was really S-L-O-W to speak and react. his excuse was that he was just being chill. to my knowledge, he didn't do drugs--BUT his eyes always seemed glazed over and had no real focus. he would just gaze into space as if nothing was really there. he would blink like he was constantly waking up from a dream.definitely a goofy spazz of a person.

don't get me wrong, this guy wasn't retarded. he was an engineering major at school. but today i was so perplexed as to his "problem," or just him being him, and i Googled a possible explanation.

Fragile X Syndrome causes symptoms similar to autism:

• Mental retardation
• Tendency to avoid eye contact
• Hyperactive behavior
• Large forehead or ears with a prominent jaw

also, the affected men have atypical social development (i just thought the guy was weird for no reason), shyness, strange vocalization (high pitch, weird sounds, cluttering of words, and strange facial expressions. heh. my acquaintance exhibits all of these things!

but then again, he probably did use drugs (or used drugs as well as being affected by FXS, which would only amplify his condition).

so: Fragile X Syndrome, Autism, or Stoner (a big possibility considering his social crowd)? my mind is enjoying wrapping itself around this. damn, am I a carrier?! are you?

all about vag.

now, take a moment to recover from your awkward feelings, because i'm going to make it worse very soon.

as a future gynecologist / obstetrician and superstar women's rights activist, i'm pretty passionate about the vagina--the whole vulva and mons pubis, actually. i'm also very comfortable and open with discussing these things. lots of girls feel an unavoidable embarrassment when just the word "vagina" is mentioned. me--i use it everyday. sometimes overly so. "oh, my vagina is happy like from the Vagina Monologues!"

female genitalia are not treated fairly! boys get to touch and familiarize themselves with their parts daily when they piss from the youngest of ages. they even give their parts nicknames, like Peter and such, and this is considered normal. it's nearly a crime that ladies don't accept this privilege. we are raised from birth to be super conservative with the knowledge and love of our bodies. it's OK for fellas to masturbate regularly, but unheard of for ladies to do so too?! a sexist double-standard. hello! some girls don't even know the different names for parts of their sexuality, thus are not fully knowledgeable of their own bodies! how can you expect such a lady to then take proper care of herself and make developed and informed decisions?! a crime, if you ask me. please, please, please tell me that you at least know where your clitoris is, and that this tiny part of yourself houses a crap-ton more nerves than does a male's entire penis. how's that for female empowerment?!

now back to the photo and making your awkward feelings worse: sadly enough, i used to be self-conscious about the appearance of my down-below region for absolutely no reason. society truly prevents us from accepting the reality that women are real down there and that we all don't look the same. so, to continue the damage to my poor and unsuspecting readers, which photo from above best resembles you? i know someone who's a 25!

some links that i love. please visit! you will thank me!

• The-Clitoris
• All About My Vagina
  

this idea was ripped from the gurl.com relationships and sex message board.

i can help you: EFT

i can help you heal yourself using only one of your hands! really. and it's not even masturbation-related.

the cause of all negative emotion is caused by a disruption of the body's energy systems.

hmm. by accessing the body's energy meridian endpoints, one can self-administer treatment and correct this disruption--kind of like toying with the antennae on my television when the picture is full of static.

whatever? nope. EFT is real. it's founded by a doctor as an alternative form of treatment for all sorts of conditions: depression, weight loss, PTSD, war memories, phobias, and EVERYTHING. it's like acupuncture without the needles. it seems a bit unorthodox, because i'm only familiar with Western medicine, but Asian cultures have been using this subtle, but powerful form of treatment for ages! what's stopping everyone else?

so with Emotional Freedom Technique, veterans of war have been cured of their stress disorders, clinically depressed people have learned to cope naturally when years of meds and therapy have failed, and folks with severe aquaphobia now enjoy beach trips for the swimming? YES! 

"Some day the medical profession will wake up and realize that unresolved emotional issues are the main cause of 85% of all illnesses. When they do, EFT will be one of their primary healing tools .... as it is for me."

- Eric Robins, MD 

it's really simple: all you need is your hand. say an affirmation and follow with a sequence of tapping on various energy endpoints [which are close to the body's surface] and one can witness profound mental AND physical healings immediately. and according to the writer of the official manual, you don't even need to believe that it's working for results to occur!

so call me crazy. "crazy!" and i agree that tapping on my chin, my hand, etc. looks silly and that something as subtle as touch can physically heal people with severe problems seems unrealistic. BUT, i've been trying it regularly now at the urging of a friend and the science has loads of affirmative case studies as proof. there was nothing to lose and in my experience, i've been feeling even more peachy when one of my emotions or problems get to me deeply on rare occasions: anger, fear, insomnia, feeling overwhelmed and tired on Monday mornings.

want to try it? go to the official website, download the 80 page manual, watch the videos, teach yourself and study the science, do your research... there's nothing to lose. you can tap about anything. and who knows?.. you could really be doing something nothing short of amazing for improving your already royal life! if you have success [or any type of experience for that matter] i'd love to hear about it! please drop me a line!

for the impatient who would rather just dive right in, here is another link to tempt you: EFT on a Page. good luck.
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and PS--i got hired today!!! thanks to my fiance's sister [my sister now too], i've got a new job downtown! i've just finished with my RCIA meeting [to help in my decision to convert to Catholicism], and my hair is full of beautiful curls. today has been SO peachy!

ciao.

blog promotion for prostitutes and rockstars.

as a self-proclaimed blogging connoisseur, as proved by an existence in the Blogosphere since the mid 90s, i'm going to have so much fun with this post: i remember back, at least a decade ago, to my early days of internet whoring.. my own hosted website at an emo-named domain, LiveJournal and OpenDiary have been the instruments of my crime and vanity. my classmates and i had a circle of our vapid overshares in online diary form because we were just so cool. i've read and commented on drug abuse, oral sexin' of boyfriends, beer bashes, debates on how punk the band AFI really was / is, and other  components in the Wasteland of Teenage Angst.

as i got older and the threat of jailtime as well as permanent reputation harm became more real, i matured and formed a more purposeful vision for blogging. i got diagnosed with clinical depression and contemplated my stability online for my own welbeing, sans too many description of sexual encounters, bad music, blue hair dye, and wrist slicing. what i also got interested in was actual promotion. who would have thought that the world was bigger than just myself?! while my classmates were a supportive and depressing audience, i knew that my real friends lived in the computer, states, and even countries, away. how did i reach out to them?

• the gURL.com messageboards has a nice community of ladies who would love to jump on your blog posts if you return the favor. don't forget a shameless and artistic plug in your signature complete with a kissy picture of you and your boyfriend / girlfriend!
• if you're really vain, head to Plugboard.org and link your space with a cute button
• leave comments on other folks' blogs, network, be vain and cool
• join webrings, blog carnivals, etc.
• read some articles from Miss Gala Darling twice
• how to make money from your blog and why to never get a job
• Problogger.net, enough said
  

good luck! and if you become a millionaire celebrity with tons of readers, send me a nice thank you note!