my bitch-ass family goodness.

so, i've pretty much got to find something to do today. i don't have chemistry lab and gas money isn't an issue because hey, you live once. wow! i have a 20% off Borders coupon in my email. i think i know who's going down Lakeland!

a girl, via facebook messenger, told me last night that she was inspired to start blogging because of me. you know, i think about that and i go "how cool!" because it really is! i inspire people?! how about that! and yeah, i feel extra chipper today for some reason.

actually, i know the exact reason. i believe that God [not gonna preach to ya] leaves our parents or other annoying, wise people around on earth for a reason. yeah, we want to hit them in the face for always drilling their advice into our skulls, but [and i'm gonna be a little morbid here, yeesss!] there has to be a reason that they're not dead, yet, right?

seriously. with all of the people that just die, literally blown up off of the face of the earth at any time, why is my old nagging grandmother still around to nag me? why is my handicapped mother still here bitching at me? why is your bitch-ass mother still around?

i'm not saying that they're flawless and the types of characters you see in movies. hell, my folks are far from that. in fact, most of what my mother tells me is actually just bitching. but you know, sometimes, when i ask for it and when i need it most, she's there to keep me from doing the absolutely wrong thing. when i'm crying because life doesn't make sense, my old grandmother is there to help me put things into perspective, because she has lived it before [a few times] and she is on a different level from me and can be personal and objective at the same time. and i LOVE my strong, wise bitch-ass female family members for what they have instilled me with to this day.

not saying that i especially needed it today. i'm glad to say that i'm getting really good at managing my own chaos and fighting my own demons, but i appreciate their presence so much, i can't even describe. i'm not going to complian about them anymore. they have their purposes with me and i'm going to let them have that.

wonder what book i'll end up buying today? suggestions?