stoned.

i am soooooo doped up now on prescriptions till it's not even funny. it's pleasant as hell and gives me the "oomph" to crawl out of the figurative fetal position that i'm often in and actually do something with my gift of involuntary respiration and voluntary will to be productive. that said, i am blogging and daydreaming about an ideal life.

before the meds today, i had to courage to finally confront a friend about some feelings of betrayal on my part. i'm not [too] crazy and i don't make things up, so i have a justification for my emotions and i'm brave enough to confront the source of my misery. turns out beside my tendency to be overly dramatic, the friend has a tendency to be clueless. nevertheless, i have to look out for myself here in this life. if it takes acknowledging a change in relationship and respecting that people operate independently of my best interest and always will [even if that person was a bestie] then i just have to step into the big-girl panties and do that. if i even have to cut ties with several people to ensure my own wellness and happiness, then i'l gladly do it because i'm only responsible for myself and making myself comfortable. doing the right thing is exhausting.

and boring to blog about.

i'm going to die my hair, i promise. i'm thinking a dark brown. somethign simillar to what the natural color of my hair probably is. haven't seen it in years.

aww, my juju's online♥

stooooooonedd. stoned. stoned. excellent, i must say.

this has been another completely random and nonsensical indulgence of mine. you love it. peace out.