sleep and sleep and sleep.

i just really would rather not wake up on time in the morning. contemplating not waking up at all, as if i can control that. there is a dying kitten in my lap, a sucky boyfriend, an asshole ex, and a scary future that i am being catapulted into. i just want to be numb to everything and not feel a thing until tomorrow sometime.
the thing is that i have no distractions. i don't have any fancies to occupy my mind, and it's all my own fault. what i want is a car of my own, a pocketfull of money and a vacation destination. i'm settling for Blood and Gold and the internet.
not much more waxing that i can accomplish. hopefully i will be good and tired before something else takes an offensive turn.