honesty game sucks.

speaking of neglect. shame on me.
well, since i cannot be successfully laid by my [boyfreind?] i've looked up on gurl.com ways to be intimate without being intimate. sad, i know. online suggests:
reading, talking, massage, hand-holding, being honest...
so i tell him that my family thinks that he is trashy and unworthy of the likes of me [but i love him anyways] and he tells me that he loves me too. great, great, great. i still have no idea of what i am doing and how to go about doing it. playing stuff by ear is really bad on the knees; oh wait! i mean, doing things one day at a time...can really suck.