i refuse to go lesbian (today).

it's ironic that one can always count on others to have an opinion or to disagree with something that another is contending with. it's slightly less common for me to actually take the advice, which is why i'm shocked at myself right now.

no doubt, i'm stuck, romantically speaking. me and men don't have the greatest of affairs. hmm, my father is a man. lets see: he was an atrocious parent and husband. i should hardly forgive him. i have a very negative view of all men, including other family members. no guy that i encounter is ever good enough... BS. i'm a hop, skip, and jump away from lesbianism.

perhaps i have some deep lying damage that thwarts all of my interaction with males? maybe i just have no luck.