how else, but through a broken heart?

wow. i'm so sick of every post being about how some guy has done me wrong. i'm not a dummy; i know that i do it to myself... larry said that he wasn't going to change-not couldn't, but wouldn't. emmett can't settle for me right now... i have issues, i know. i don't have a father; i have this incessant need to have some big, strong man in my life. and more than likely, i play the fool and leave myself in unhealthy positions just for the security.

larry broke it off because he found out that i cheated; at least he has good grounds. i cheated because i got sick and tired of voicing how larry mistreated me and how i didn't deserve it [it was never a good situation, you see]. momma kept telling me how that this was going to happen and that larry wasn't worth it; i need to go to college and have fun with other amazing guys who know how to treat me and enjoy dating around. well, now me and larry are through and he can go stay with erica, some older woman who gives him a place to stay and has no expectations of him except to come home. larry was also more than happy to let me know that he has a new job now, which pays a lot better, as if i'm supposed to be upset about all of the money that i'm missing! :/ it was never about his money! i never needed his money, only respect, but i really hope that erica has everything that she wants out of larry and that he spends everything that he can on that woman. somebody deserves to be happy. maybe they're just meant to be together?

here is to no more silly little posts about silly little boys and the problems that they cause. now i can go on and concentrate on loving myself!

btw: the quote that i used for the title is from Oscar Wilde's lovely poem, "The Ballad of Reading Gaol." seems that prison will do things to you...

"Ah! happy they whose hearts can break
And peace of pardon win!
How else may man make straight his plan
And cleanse his soul from Sin?
How else but through a broken heart
May Lord Christ enter in?"