"i appreciate you."

that's exactly what he said... words are so powerful and people can manage still to sling them around, as if they are nothing. i do not think that he is lying on purpose; that is something i would never expect. i think that he just doesn't know how powerful words can be and has a knack for misusing them.

i was up until he felt too bad to tell me what time it was last night with him on the phone talking about nothing for several hours, just the way we like it. i refuse to fall into the same place i was in a year-or-so ago, no matter how much the current events mirror those of then. I REFUSE. i might love him a little, but i will not be in love with him, because that type of thing will just get me into trouble.

i wonder when he will call tonight? all types of romances, no matter how fleeting or hurtful do two things. they can leave one very unromantic, but before that happens, they always produce some of the best emotions in the world. ...hmmm. that's what i am hanging on for? well, then. i guess i "appreciate" him, also.

there are thousands of words left unsaid [typed], but for that to matter, my heart must be involved in this romance of mine and i am far too unromantic for that.